I find that I am doing a lot of apologizing in my life recently. I am sorry that I have been a bad blogger...I've not posted regularly and I really do try to but life has a tendency to get in the way of things. So here is one more apology in the litany of remorse. I am dealing with the fallout that some bad choices on my part have created in my marriage. I have apologized over and over again and will continue to apologize until I no longer need to. This has been where most of my time away from work has been spent, trying to rectify the fucked up situation that I created. My marriage and my family are the most important things in the world to me. I am selfish when it comes to my time and would rather spend as much time with my husband and daughter than anything else. So the days that I haven't posted, I've been holed up in a room with my family, playing video games and watching movies. I regret the situation and the pain that it has caused, but I am also grateful for the wake up call it has been to both myself and my husband. We are rediscovering each other; our passion, our love, and our friendship...all of the things we had forgotten, in the haste of our busy lives. I am lucky enough to be married to my best friend and we both know that complacency was the enemy. We can get back the spark that we once had and keep flaming it so that it burns steadily and strong. So again, I will apologize once more, but this time in advance. I will do my best to post as often as possible. What may happen is shorter, more frequent posts or longer ones with more days in between posts. I don't know yet, we'll see what life throws at me. Let me leave you with this thought...we aren't promised tomorrow...make the most out of every day, tell those people you love that you love them every day. Don't let time get in the way of your own happiness. Until next time...
May you hear symphonies where there are only wind chimes. ~epiphany |